Mind Games

24th October 07

Yesterday was one of those 'what the hell is happening' days. Paul and Rachels Grandma passed away on the night of the 21st...into the 22nd out here. It threw me somewhat although I never had a great relationship with her Grandparents. Upset in the family is upset in the family. My whole world seemed to have a blue air about it. My mind worked overtime but never really achieved anything. I hate those days. I resolved to start thinking toward results, views, decisions and opinions later in the day. Structured thinking not just messy whirring thinking.

Lovina things aren't so Wow. It's another of those little Asian seaside towns that offer everything from girls to shells and make an unremarkable job of those and most stuff in between... speaking principally as a spectator, of course. There is a Wow to be explored offshore with trips to Dolphin watch and early morning remote bay snorkelling. It's in there but it's early and it has to follow a nice day that finishes with some comfort food (I have spotted one operation offering Chile Con Carne), a relatively early night and good sleep... not beers in a bar listening to the unremarkable job (but good effort) live music that, this morning, brings a smile to my face. 'Sue Lawley' still seems as appropriate to the tone and moan of that 'So Lonely' Police number as the original lyrics. Sue Lawley remembered! The Lovina impression perspectivised.

There is another aspect of this rather odd phase of my life that is coming to light and probably worth recording here. For my sake more than anything. I don't do holidays. I do missions and adventures. Attempting a mindless state in the search for holiday relaxation is the path toward frustration and an oppressed and crazed existance. So I am moving out of the holiday frame and into the mission frame. This is a 'chalking up' exercise.